逗陣來博：一位「穿褲的」女性的日常生命實踐

Abstract

現年六十三歲的阿女作為紀錄片《我和我的Ｔ媽媽》與《日常對話》的拍攝主角，其陽剛化的外表與女女情慾，因紀錄片的映演與獲獎而受到媒體關注，進入了當代性別論述與倫理討論之中。本研究指出影像公共化後的一系列論述，立基於同一性邏輯的身份政治與倫理規範，並以此錯置作為追尋的起點，自阿女「性別樣態」的關注轉向其「生存/生活」的命題：嘗試通過對複雜碎裂處境的描述，重探阿女的個人生命與其存活，如何與台灣社會的都市化與「家」的動態過程相互生成 ; 同時，拆解過往研究中既定的認同與社群邊界，聚焦在與牌友們共處的宮壇空間及日常生活裡，描述不同處境的生命樣態如何通過金錢或藥物，持續地生產親近性共處，共築具體生存的日常倫理、相互照顧，並以此存活。

With the success of the Teddy Award-winning documentary SMALL TALK(2016), the self-identification of the 63 years old main character A-Nju(阿女), has become a public topic. Being recognized as a lesbian mother, A-Nju herself, though, doesn’t really agree with that. This paper starts from the distance between public dissertations and her self-location, then swift to her gambling for survival, which is emerging from urbanization and dynamic transformation of home/house/family in Taiwan. Focus on her daily life in old age in the urban shrine, I paint a picture of how people in similar situation gathering here, and how they make affiliations by gambling with each other. Through the everyday-life practices of monetary and medication exchanges, they form flexible sustaining systems different form kinship. By these descriptions, I present another possibility of seeing her, not just about identity, but alternative ethical practices of caring and living.