絕望直女：關於負面愛慾的情動民族誌

Abstract

本論文以「絕望直女」為研究對象，指在當代中國都市語境中，既深度認同激進女性主義立場、又在異性戀結構中反復徘徊的女性主體。她們在政治認同與情感實踐之間維持著持續的張力：一方面通過網絡女權話語和日常防禦機制拒絕男性特權，另一方面卻在浪漫影集的修復性觀看與對「落水狗」式男性的情感牽連中，持續回返被父權結構塑造的愛欲場景。

理論上，研究結合「情動轉向」對身體感知與情感生成性的關注，以及Berlant「殘酷樂觀」所揭示的延宕慾望與自我消耗機制，探討「絕望直女」如何在創傷性親密關係與文化消費中維繫對理想客體的粘附，卻始終無法實現徹底的轉化或脫離。方法上，本文運用自我民族志與深度訪談並行書寫，將研究者的創傷性觀看經驗與受訪者的情感敘事並置，呈現出防禦與回返交織的情動實踐。

研究指出，「絕望直女」的狀態並非單純的戀愛失敗或創傷重復，而是反映了當代中國激進女性主義在情感政治上的困境，以及在無法徹底離開既有結構的同時，仍然生成新的感知與關係可能

This thesis examines the figure of the “desperate straight woman” in contemporary urban China—women who embrace radical feminist politics yet remain drawn to heterosexual attachments. They navigate a constant tension between rejecting male privilege and returning to patriarchally shaped desire, notably through restorative viewing of romantic television dramas and emotional involvement with “drenched dog men”, a colloquial term for fragile, melancholic men.

Drawing on the affect turn’s emphasis on embodied feeling and Lauren Berlant’s concept of “cruel optimism,” the study uses autoethnography and in-depth interviews to juxtapose the researcher’s traumatic viewing experiences with participants’ narratives. Findings reveal that this figure is neither mere romantic failure nor simple trauma repetition but embodies the emotional-political impasse of radical feminism in China—unable to fully detach from existing structures, yet capable of generating new ways of sensing and relating within them.