盲與社會工作經驗交織的成長敘事

Abstract

本文述說一段「障礙身體」與「鑲嵌健全主義視框的社工專業」遇合的故事，探尋如何詮釋與實踐交織障礙和社工專業的主體經驗。透過梳理既有文獻和學術處境，我覺察欲發展本文必先跨越己身處在障礙知識客體化和視覺理性的失語位置。因而立基建構主義對於主體經驗的關照，我拾回對為己敘事、反出主流和回觀主體的決心，邁向以自我民族誌方法整理我專業成長脈絡的書寫之路。 文中以我十年來交織障礙經驗和社會工作專業留存的126份檔案資料為分析素材，輔以訪談內容、文獻和次級資料編織故事的材料。最終收束為四段敘事主軸，其一是由偏向微視層面，談「斷裂的自我、斷裂的障礙經驗」；其二則論述專業和巨視結構形塑「充權又消權，難以脫身的健全視框，並接續第三段敘事主軸較縱向地詮釋支配和介入受迫者的生命經驗下，如何發展出一段「看到集體的壓迫與抵抗」的敘事。最終隨著成長和行動，我得以分享追尋「走向解殖、走向自己」的劇集，立足於交織性和抵殖民論述，拾回自身的掌控感與盲人敘事。 本文由個人經驗起始，映出障礙、社工教育、專業治理等等建制所立足的基底，存續過多國家治理的干預、中心化的單一典範及製造健全和回歸主流的敘事。面對主流健常社會，我得以完成本文，標記了我嘗試走向屬於自身主體的抵抗與生存足跡，而不求回歸主流，或將障礙、多元性別、少數身分等主體經驗「納入」健全主義或國家治理既定的構框。終能開展自己的抵抗和詮釋，亦希望透過文本號召更多離散和邊緣的主體，再認己身、反出主流、述說自己的故事並且終能成為自己。

This thesis narrates the intersection between "disabled bodies" and the "social work profession framed by ableism," exploring how disability and social work intersect in interpretation and practice. Reviewing existing literature and academic contexts, I recognize the need to transcend voicelessness rooted in the objectification and visual rationalization of disability knowledge. Grounded in a constructivist approach to subjectivity, I reclaim my determination to narrate personal experiences, resist the mainstream, and reflect on subjectivity, using an autoethnographic method to contextualize my professional growth.

The analysis draws on 126 archival documents from ten years of intersecting disability and social work, supplemented by interviews, literature, and secondary sources. The thesis culminates in four narrative axes: first, a micro-level discussion of "fractured self and fractured disability experiences"; second, how professional practice and macro structures shape a "disempowering yet empowering ableist framework"; third, a longitudinal interpretation of oppression and resistance, leading to a narrative that "recognizes collective oppression and resistance." Finally, I share a journey toward "decolonization and self-discovery," grounded in intersectionality and anti-colonial discourse, reclaiming agency and disabled narratives.

Beginning with personal experience, this thesis reflects on the foundations of disability, social work education, and professional governance within national interventions, centralized paradigms, and narratives constructing ableism and mainstream conformity. Facing the mainstream able-bodied society, I mark my attempts to resist and forge a survival path, rather than reintegrating into the mainstream or assimilating diverse identities into pre-established ableist frameworks. Ultimately, I aim to articulate resistance and inspire marginalized individuals to recognize themselves, resist the mainstream, narrate their own stories, and become themselves.